it's time

to get back into it all. the crazy fatigue, the soreness, the aching/constant hunger. i believe it's finally time for me to start training again.

i'm now back down to the weight i was around oceanside 70.3. i figure if i could do that race, plus the training prior, and i was safe without injury, i can start getting back into it.

i started my day with a run. and it wasn't a good run. like, at all. it was nice to be back out there, running the same route i did 100 times before oceanside. but it hurt. hell, it's now 8 hours later and it still hurts. i guess that's one of the things i said i was ready for in the first paragraph, huh? yeah, i'm not the sharpest tool in the shed.

for whatever reason, today is decision-making time. i decided (while peeing on the toilet) an hour ago that i'm not applying for that position in the NICU. i don't like the docs. i'm not too fond of the one who'd be working directly under me. and i'm not too fond of a good majority of the nurses. it's not my idea of fun to try to wrangle all those egos and attitude to whip that damn unit back into something of substance. it's not a good unit. i'd be nieve to think that with no managerial experience, i could single-handedly turn that around. plus, it'd completely cut out school. i couldn't train, work, and do school. there's just not enough hours in the day. so, the job is out. i'm relieved to have it decided. i guess my thinking was a bit deluded in the first place, but kaiser is made up of delusional thinking. it's actually a job requirement. what's not in the job requirement is a map showing you how quickly you'll fail. i don't need my first endeavor into the management world to end in an epic fail.

after making this decision, the first thing i did was check my email. it was fate that a little email popped into my inbox regarding the 2012 la marathon. it was also fate that my coach immediately knocked that one out. since dave already registered us for oceanside 70.3, the 2 races are only 2 weeks apart. not enough recovery time for legs. bummer. so, i'll just have to do the la half marathon in january!

we have santa barbara coming up late august. that particular race has a lot of sentimental meaning to dave and i, and at this point i'm just hoping i'll be able to cross the line. which is a bit defeating before i even get started. i could do a half ironman 3 months ago, and this morning i ran a very slow, very painful 3.5 miles the first stab back at it. ah well. you've gotta start somewhere, right?

after that, dave is very excited about Soma in Tempe, also a 70.3. for that one, i believe i can get back into it with my coach and be ok, depending on just how hot it gets. i also want to do the la tri again this year. same race that i became the human pretzel back in 2009. something about riding my bike down the same city streets i traverse every day to get to work, it's just awesome. it's pretty expensive, but it's also sponsored by kaiser so i need to start snooping about a discount...

'tis all. for now.